about song...

by the way...
do you know a book "heartsong" by mattie j. t. stepanek?
it is really a good book.
salut for him!
to know more go to oprah and search for mattie.
hopefully i can share my heartsong, too.
(but.. may be not make a book! hehehe, don't have talent on it)

song

the day after tomorrow is her graduation and you will be there to sing (with the choir).

the songs that you sing or play is always about her.
the songs that you write is always about her.
the songs that you sings is always for her.

will it be me sometimes?

christmas eve...

i think it is weird to talk about christmas at this time.
it is still june.
but...
at that time, santa gave me the best gift.
i can be with you at christmas eve.
and you gave me the first gift, drove me home, and gave me a short nice beautiful message.

cintapuccino

it is a nice book.
rahmi (the main character) has the same thing with me: obsession.
will my story have the same ending like her?
one thing to do: waiting.

by the way,
i have found my "nimo" since September 2003.

and now i know, that i love him more and more everyday.

air dan api

tau ga lagu air dan api-nya naif?
liriknya itu "kamu dan saya" banget.

tau ga?
elemen kamu itu api.
elemen saya itu air.
dan kita saat ini (entah kapan mulainya) selalu seperti ada yang ga pas.
apa karena elemen kita berlawanan?

saya tau klo kata meta pasti "jangan terlalu percaya ama gituan. lagian kan yang berpegaruh ga cuma itu aja."
saya sungguh berharap kalau itu memang cuma itu.
karena setiap ada pertentangan antara kita, hanya sakit yang terasa.

dalem banget...

itu aku
(sheila on 7)

ribuan hari aku menuggumu
jutaan lagu tercipta untukmu
apakah kau akan terus begini

masih adakah celah di hatimu
yang masih bisa tuk kusinggahi
cobalah aku kapan engkau mau

taukah lagu yang kau suka...
taukah bintang yang kau sapa...
taukah rumah yang kau tuju...
ITU AKU

coba keluar di malam badai
nyanyikan lagu yang kau suka
maka kesejukan yang kau rasa

coba keluar di terik siang
ingatlah bitang yang kau sapa
maka kehangatan yang kau rasa

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what a song!!

nothing chage

from arf's blog:

Dia Benci Kamu
Sebuah pertanyaan terlontar darinya...
"Kalo gua sama dia mati barengan, siapa yang bakal lu kunjungin duluan?"

Mengejutkan...
dan pertanyaan itu pun tak terjawab... atau lebih tepatnya ga mau gw jawab... Karena gw ga pernah membayangkan dan berharap ada situasi seperti itu.
Satu jawaban bodoh terlontar... "By the time itu terjadi, mungkin gw udah pergi duluan..."
Gw ga pengen menyakiti hatinya... tapi gw juga ga bisa bohong sama hati gw...

dia benci lagu juwita karena lagu itu "guabangetkekamu"
dia benci semua lagu yang gw mainin karena "guabangetkekamu"
dia ga suka warna hijau yang dulu dia suka karena kamu suka hijau
dia ga suka kopi yang dulu dia suka karena kamu suka kopi
dia ga suka mug, benda favoritnya karena gw pernah ngasih mug.
dia benci kamu karena merebut impiannya... Arsitektur Unpar
dia benci kamu karena merebut "aku"
dia benci semua yang berhubungan sama kamu

dia benci kamu..
dan aku tak ingin...

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may be i was a person like that. but now... i am trying to change.

i won't ask such as that question anymore (it is stupid)
i still don't like that song but i am not irritated anymore (just don't care)
i like all the song that you play and sing coz it is you the one who sing.
i like green, orange, and yellow; it will be always
i love mugs and now i still want to have more.
i still have my dream (and never loose it) to build my own house, my "home sweet home" eventhough i am not an architect coz my friend say that i still can make it.
if you and her love each other.. then nothing else to be said or regreted, it just you and her.
i don't care with her and everything that connect with her axcept you.
about my hatred i just hope i can change it.

yeah... it is hard but at least i will try more.
just for you.
feel better?

me..

it is quote from meta:

I don't wish to be everything to everyone,
but I would like to be something to someone

i like this quote very much.
it makes me strong.
and i hope that someone is you...

hatred

do you know how much i am jealous with her?
totally..!!
i am totally hate her

expectation

i always wait..
eventhough is hard
coz many times my ego take control of myself.
and i know,
it always annoys you.
at this time..
i want to say i am really sorry
and i will wait for you