depressed

lately, he told me that i am depressed. am i?
i think i am.
i always angry just because a little thing. i like having my own world a.k.a. autis sometime and get normal again. i cry easily. i get hunger easily-lapar emosi. i always think negative about friends, rivals, the hate one. blablablabla... and many more.
do i need to go to psychiatric?
i think i have already been grown up to face all my problem but.. now i realize that it is a zero.
what is actually called by grown up?

he suggested me once.. "yov, jadi orang itu harus humble". the fact, it is not that easy as i thought. being humble is difficult because everyone has their own ego and always want the best for themselves. but he said again, "klo kamu humble kamu bisa terima dan membalas semuanya dengan baik"

i think it is called by grown up. but it is hard to be like that. i think it is one of the causes that makes me depressed. i damn really want to be grown up asap, if could i want it instantly but i know in this case i can't get it that way. but i am 23 now. i have done nothing. i do not know what i have to do. my friends, my rivals, the hate one, have done many things and seems they have been already grown up too. it makes me depressed. totally depressed.

*sigh* i hate this periode..
bah!